tan julia faith aka xin
working at LGA
1st appearance 1st july 1987
current status
missed feeling doted and loved :(
her desires
want to be successful @ work
wanna have someone to call my own
a trip to taiwan/ hokng kong!
See my dearest jiro & fabien!
Watch sunrise and sunset & fireworks
dkny watch
more adidas items!!
take ccna exam by dec '08
refurnish my room
okay. it has been ages since i last blogged. not 'cos i do not have anything to update. its cos of laziness. the things i wanna blog about are piling up. so what makes me decided to blog now? well, its cos im stuck at customer's site with no Internet connection and he wouldn't let me go til the line is up. stupid Singtel. so freaking slow response time. hungry man. here is jurong pier road nor. so out of the way. a hungry woman is an angry woman. so yep. shall compose my blog now and start shooting stuffs and writing my past month's thoughts.
first thing will be wanna complain about OCBC. i had started a monthly savings account with them since aug this year. it will auto-deduct a certain amount from my posb to there. but problem is in Oct, my bank does not have sufficient amount for it to do the deduction. which i didnt realise cos the first deduction was on 26th aug. and i was informed it will follow the first time. end up never. changed to 22nd. so i called up OCBC and asked what will happen now that i had missed it. he said there is a grace period of 10 days and i was notified through mail to make the deposit manually into the account. but, this account of mine does not have internet banking at all. and i didnt receive that notification email. so how the hell was i supposed to know of this? so i complained. then he said thats the normal procedure and that my monthly deposit account was then converted to a statement account whereby i can redraw the money anytime. well, there was NO letter of notification from OCBC to inform me of this new statement account number nor was i given any form of access to my cash there. dammnit. so i asked now what? he asked me to go to any branch to apply for it. wtf man? crap lorsh. if not for the fact that OCBC has the interest rates, i will not have set up my account there. angry man. and the cust svc officer put me on hold like 10 minutes while finding out? when i go down to the branch, i'll definitely make a complain.
anyway, enough of that topic. the following 2 paragraphs will be on my thoughts after the long conversation i have with my princess jane the other night. she has a new bf since april this year. i didnt really have a good impression of him as i don't like the fact that he always put jane down even in front of her friends. and they are always at buckle heads. both faces look so serious during that time. some couples once you saw them, you will be able to see the lovey-dovey and the sparks between them. this doesn't occur when j&a is tgt. then everytime i ask jane to update me on hows the 2 of them getting along, her answer will always be like that nor. good ah. she don't tell me details. until that day i managed to force her to list out whats the most touching thing alex had done for her. then she suddenly said out many happenings which i never heard about before. it pained my heart to know my best friend went through so much and i wasn't there for her. it also hurts to know that i wasn't one of the person she contacted at her darkest time.
of cos, i know that not much people, in fact, i think only alex knew about it. but still, alex is a new known friend while i'm her best friend since 6 years ago. super disappointed. is it myself that thats the problem? i really have no clue. jane, you are my princess, my dearest girl friend you should know. i know i hold a place in your heart which is why you are hesitating in the r/s with alex now just cos i said i don't feel good about how he treats you in front of us. but the reason why i am frank with you is cos you wanna my feedback. you feel my comments are biased and could be cos i prefer jk. but this definitely ain't true. alex is born into a wealthier family than all of us. all that alex's gf wants, he will be able to give without really working for it if you get my meaning. its not out of jealousy either thus i put alex down. cos i have other friends whose bf is rich and i'd mixed along with many different characteristics friends. i believe what my eye see and what my ears hear. my dearest princess, i really hope that we will not drift apart just cos of this matter. and i sincerely hope that you and alex will last since you have found something special in him which makes him unique and different from your ex. please do not give him up because of my comments. i know you value our friendship and trust me. but love is, after all just pretty the two parties. what others see may not be true. always bear this in mind okay?
huixian darlingg, im thankful for your presence that day when im feeling down. as always, whenever i see you, all my problems just went away. at least for the first hour haahaa. thanks to darren also for not minding me tagging along for dinners, movies and trips into JB with you two. and definitely not forgetting the small fireworks which you had set off in an attempt to bring a smile to darlingg and my face during that night when both of us are feeling emo. also darlingg, after knowing you for 4-5 years, for the every first time, you opened up your heart much deeper to me. i finally understand why you hate being alone and scare of the dark. i can't say i understand what you went through cos i've not been in that situation before. but my heart goes out to you. thats time when i could not be by your side when you need me. but i wanna you know that you ain't alone. i'll try my very best to be there for you. i will not let you turn to drinking days again. i know i hadn't fulfilled my promise last week but i hope you will trust me once more. love you huixian. you're my darlingg always!~
as for working wise, there's still unhappiness between me and that colleague who is hired to share my workload for PBX server. his name is Mani. he has been with us for 4 months already. initially i was pretty harsh towards him as was overstressed out by the 3projects and 4 cust's issues which i'm handling alone. when i'd cleared them all after a month he's here, i'd changed my attitude to him and is more patient. it seemed like the bad impression couldn't be rubbed away no matter how hard i tried. cos til today, anything and everything he still goes directly to kokpin and zhangtao (my manager). in my team, im the only one specialising in PBX. kp knows a lil cos he helped me on the network portion and i taught him as and when i could the simpler things. zt knows also a lil only. but whenever cust has problems, Mani will forever turn to kp first. if kp not around, he will goes to zt straight. ended up its always kp and zt having to be the medium between us. things i have asked him to do (example, documentation), he will never ever do it. his response will be there isn't a need for it. or else said that he will discuss with kp then see how. dots. all that i had requested from him was actually given the green light by either kp or zt one nor. whats the meaning of this man? is he belittling my knowledge and having doubts of my abilities? if so, then how do he wanna explain all the times i had guided him to resolve the issues? and whenever he just started saying the prob, i'll already know where goes wrong. told him and he don't believe. argued and do things his way. end up making mistakes which he should not have causing cust to have a longer downtime. he's lucky there isn't SLG for the service. anyway, we have already split up who will handle which cust. i will definitely keep to it. don't ever cross my path or you'll regret it since til today you still have no idea where's the boundary.
a last thing i wanna mention, is of cos, mr brown. my feelings for him hadn't decreased. but, at the same time, i'm starting to feel numb whenever i saw the things between him and michelle. i had shot him once saying that he is the actual support officer and not michelle. all the time that michelle assisted him to response to cust are viewable by everybody. adding on to the fact that both of them are sitting in front of their respective managers. even the filipinos who do not understand chinese can feel that there's spark flying between the two of you whenever you guys chatted. and the breakfasts and lunch which mich makes for ken is just so freaking obvious. i have seen them left office together after work many times. saw him carrying stuffs for mich. its a gentleman action i know. still... i have also witnessed them having breakfast together at our canteen from 9-930am. you ordered drink for her and was standing just besides me. didn't greet me good morning. its as if we are strangers. anyway, this is office hours lorsh. don't you guys think you all are carrying it too far? true, your relationship ain't affecting both of ya work. but, is it really right? where's the boy i used to know? was it all a fiscase and just a lie? i still smsed you once fortnightly. each time you will reply and also commented you notice this or that about me. diaox. if you are really that concern, you would have come right out and asked on the spot. mich will be clearing her leave from 14-23rd Nov. will you be joining us when she's gone? i have no idea what will happen to us when she is away. after all, you had changed after i went on long leave. but i doubt that history will repeat itself. the thing between you and mich had too huge an impact on me already. the damage has been dealt hard the day you chose to say the white lies. despite it all, you still hold a place deep within my heart. haiz. if only...
