Sunday, November 23, 2008
hmmm, why is it that no one tags on my cbox? saddd! anyway, i'll blogged a quick one. cos meeting fren for a dinner in like 45min lol. work wise, dont think it is going as smooth as i hope it to be. Mani is getting worse each time. originally ZT had split the list of PBX into two groups for each of us to handle. we thought this will be a better way. ended up just cos he is handling two internal testing requested by the big bosses and just one non-premium cust, he refused to take up the case of 2 ONS customers whom we have to get back to within 4 hours. fine. he said he has his hands full of i assisted him on it.
when i finished the job, asked him to call cust to check if it is alright. he don't wanna call cust and only email cust an hour plus later. by then cust of cos is mad as it is a service he's paying for. so supposedly cust called up Mani and scolded him and said we are doing the opposite of wad he wants. Mani then came and argued with me. its so loud that even two rows away colleagues heard. i went out to cool down after the quarrel. came back and apologised to Mani on jabber. guess wad? he is still pointing the fingers at me. dammnit. ownself customer dun wanna handle. out of kind heartedness, i'll help as i know he does not know how to resolve it. end up this is wad i get? ZT then decided to put Mani in charge of just 5 customers and i took back all other 20+ custs. i'll never interfere again. i feel that i really had put in my best. if he's gonna be that way, let it be so.
but i realise my helpfulness at times can bring issue for people. like for example, i was helping kenny the other time to configure a set of Zyxel router with MBB as he does not know how to do it and cos he said Sharon (his mgr) had asked him to pass to SI. i thought its a simple thing so i took over. ended up i couldnt get the connection so approached KP for help. then KP went mad about this issue as he felt this shouldn't be how it is. he was then brought up during operational meetings again. oh well.. whatever. many departments have problems with him too. all complaint together after KP raised up. when ken has a issue which he cant handles, he will let Michelle knows and she would always call back to office from India. well, his beloved friend Michelle will be back next week. time to watch some shows. and ken, im pretty sure i'll gotten over you. cos the thing which i used to admire about you have all went missing. you have become a total stranger and no longer fit my criteria for a fren. so you can do whatever you wish but you will never get me back. the end.
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6:13 PM
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Tuesday, November 18, 2008
it seems like either though i am just 21, my body is 50+ years old already. i'm hunchback and have frequent shoulder/neck aches for close to 4 years already. as if this ain't enough, i have sensitive skin + eyes. during raining weather, the mosquitoes love me lots. i can have up to 5 bites a day. to the extent that the skin actually tears. i know i shouldn't had scratched it but its hard to stop the desire you know. so i ended up taking running nose medicine prescribed by my doc to get it in control.
as for my eye, worse. i can only use specific eye drop previously when i had not started wearing contact lens. all was fine when i wear the lens back in Sept 2008. but suddenly i kena eye infection twice in a week. the one i mentioned last week is inflammation on the eyeball area itself. i use the eye drops according to doc's instruction. that healed for a day. this morning i touched my eye and realise thats a bump on the same left eye. went to visit doc again. he said the inflammation is on the inner eye skin this time round. faint. how lucky can one gets?
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11:58 PM
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Sunday, November 16, 2008
hmmm... how do you place a judgement on someone? by the first impression you have of them? or do you wait til a few meetings and conversations with him before you come to a conclusion of his personality? some will say its the first impression that really counts. after all, the subsequent meet ups with him/her will most probably decrease or you'll have negative thinking on any small incidents he does just cos of the previous time. this usually ain't fair to that person cos he didn't have a chance to make up for it. but if you think in another manner, if he really cares about the friendship that you two are gonna be building up, then he will not have any old how on the first date right?
i guess this all boils down to the maturity of both parties. i decided to blog on this cos i realise that first of all, i really do care about what other thinks of me. which is why there are times when i hesitate in certain stuff which i am serious about. like for relationship wise, i always mention that im not against the age-gap between couples (jie-di lian or if the guy is much older than girl). but when i do see such cases around me, for example, june & kino, i will feel concern on how they are getting along. after all kino is just 18 this year. he has not went into NS yet and is a school dropout who hasn't have much working experience. he seems happy-go-lucky in front of us all but i know thats something within him which causes him to be this way. after chatting with him earlier, i finally know why he is the way he is. kino, be strong and jiayou. you can do it de alright?
okay. peeps reading the earlier paragraphs must be wondering what has this gotta do with me? haahaa. no la. cos thats this ex-colleague i know from my KFC days who's been pretty proactive in asking me out and stuff. fernado is younger than me by 2 years. he is studying in shatec currently plus working as a pizzahut rider and participating in events at times. he is quite hardworking guy i might say for his age. we lost contact for a couple of years after i left KFC in 2005. then by chance i bumped into him at hougang last year. so started smsing and stuff. then out of the blue he just wanna some distance after he returned from his overseas trip last dec. so be it. we left it as that. then around some time mid this year, he started chatting me up again and wanna jio me go out. after what happen the last time round, i kept my distance and keep turning him away.
came along the mr brownie incident. i cant get ack out of my mind. the best way is to switch my focus else where. anyway, so fernado and i had arranged to meet up and stuffs. but fate seems to play a trick on us. the date is set but always some stuffs will crop up and it is cancelled. still, we both keep in touch through smses. one day, he asked me why this time around i am so proactive and constant in contacting him? so i told him the truth and he said he is fine with it as he only wants a fling. so we continue the 暧昧 friendship. yesterday we met up for the first time in a year after the off-on hot-cold shoulder. it seems like i feel a thing for him. and even though he said he don't wanna a gf a few weeks back, its obvious he cares about wad i think. he calls me darling while i call him my baby. my question now is, how do one differentiate if this is a fling or for real? cos i myself also dunno. but when people ask me if i have a bf, my answer is still no. his face does come to my mind though so...?
lol. think i'm bullshiting already. cos after reading from the beginning to now here, i don't think i am making sense. one thing i'm sure though, i don't see him as a life partner. i can't imagine fernado to be one as of now. cos like kino, he hasn't went NS. who knows wad will happen? and he has a year to go after shatec and he still wanna go take up another course before reporting to NS. faint. therefore, in short, i have at least another 2 years to think through. whahaha! don't really understand why i always get myself into such weird situation when coming to love matters. the part time bf i mentioned inside my post also another one. he is attached one lol. but nothing between us larsh. we just have been addressing each other as part time since the start of our friendship. he is 29 this year and have been caring for me like he will to a little sis only. so yup. i dunno how to continue this post so i shall end here. paiseh ah. LOL!
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11:27 PM
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Wednesday, November 12, 2008
okay. i realise that there's people who are reading my blog for the past few months. t!ng and my princess are definitely the ones. know you girls are concerned and wanna to be updated on what's going on in my life. thanks wor. will try to update it more frequent. but laziness cant be helped at times ;)
today i'm on MC. as some might have noticed, i always rub my eyes. cos there's the feeling that there's something stuck in there you know? so even when i'm wearing contact lens, this habit didn't change. i do instilled eye drops but it ain't advisable to put too much drops a day. so yep. my left eye has been hurting for two days already whenever i'd rubbed it. decided to go see doctor cos its getting slightly swollen too. doc says i've got eye infection. not to wear contact lens for a week. *faith faints upon hearing that* oh well... eyes are pretty important so gotta be a good girl. anyway its closing to weekends so shall listen to his advice. if by monday i'm feeling better, then i'll resume with wearing lens xD
anyway, i used to be a super lazy and untidied girl. but recently i've been more hardworking and treating myself better. i'm mopping and tidying up my room twice a month. doing laundries weekly. then last time i just need 15min to prepare for work; wake up, brush teeth, bath, change then out of my house. now? i take at least 40min. i have to blow dry and style my hair. okay i know it doesn't really look style but at least it ain't that messy when the wind blows lol. then i also wash my face, apply toner and moisturser plus put rest eye gel to reduce puffiness and for taking care of eye bags and dark circles. not forgetting putting on my contact lens of cos. which can be pretty fast or slow. i target to leave home at 710am but thats time i only get out at 730am. thus i usually reach work between 9-915am nowadays. lucky my manager is pretty cool about these kind of things. heeex.
i'm meeting my part-time dear for supper so shall go prepare now. ciao blog!
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10:49 PM
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Tuesday, November 4, 2008
okay. it has been ages since i last blogged. not 'cos i do not have anything to update. its cos of laziness. the things i wanna blog about are piling up. so what makes me decided to blog now? well, its cos im stuck at customer's site with no Internet connection and he wouldn't let me go til the line is up. stupid Singtel. so freaking slow response time. hungry man. here is jurong pier road nor. so out of the way. a hungry woman is an angry woman. so yep. shall compose my blog now and start shooting stuffs and writing my past month's thoughts.
first thing will be wanna complain about OCBC. i had started a monthly savings account with them since aug this year. it will auto-deduct a certain amount from my posb to there. but problem is in Oct, my bank does not have sufficient amount for it to do the deduction. which i didnt realise cos the first deduction was on 26th aug. and i was informed it will follow the first time. end up never. changed to 22nd. so i called up OCBC and asked what will happen now that i had missed it. he said there is a grace period of 10 days and i was notified through mail to make the deposit manually into the account. but, this account of mine does not have internet banking at all. and i didnt receive that notification email. so how the hell was i supposed to know of this? so i complained. then he said thats the normal procedure and that my monthly deposit account was then converted to a statement account whereby i can redraw the money anytime. well, there was NO letter of notification from OCBC to inform me of this new statement account number nor was i given any form of access to my cash there. dammnit. so i asked now what? he asked me to go to any branch to apply for it. wtf man? crap lorsh. if not for the fact that OCBC has the interest rates, i will not have set up my account there. angry man. and the cust svc officer put me on hold like 10 minutes while finding out? when i go down to the branch, i'll definitely make a complain.
anyway, enough of that topic. the following 2 paragraphs will be on my thoughts after the long conversation i have with my princess jane the other night. she has a new bf since april this year. i didnt really have a good impression of him as i don't like the fact that he always put jane down even in front of her friends. and they are always at buckle heads. both faces look so serious during that time. some couples once you saw them, you will be able to see the lovey-dovey and the sparks between them. this doesn't occur when j&a is tgt. then everytime i ask jane to update me on hows the 2 of them getting along, her answer will always be like that nor. good ah. she don't tell me details. until that day i managed to force her to list out whats the most touching thing alex had done for her. then she suddenly said out many happenings which i never heard about before. it pained my heart to know my best friend went through so much and i wasn't there for her. it also hurts to know that i wasn't one of the person she contacted at her darkest time.
of cos, i know that not much people, in fact, i think only alex knew about it. but still, alex is a new known friend while i'm her best friend since 6 years ago. super disappointed. is it myself that thats the problem? i really have no clue. jane, you are my princess, my dearest girl friend you should know. i know i hold a place in your heart which is why you are hesitating in the r/s with alex now just cos i said i don't feel good about how he treats you in front of us. but the reason why i am frank with you is cos you wanna my feedback. you feel my comments are biased and could be cos i prefer jk. but this definitely ain't true. alex is born into a wealthier family than all of us. all that alex's gf wants, he will be able to give without really working for it if you get my meaning. its not out of jealousy either thus i put alex down. cos i have other friends whose bf is rich and i'd mixed along with many different characteristics friends. i believe what my eye see and what my ears hear. my dearest princess, i really hope that we will not drift apart just cos of this matter. and i sincerely hope that you and alex will last since you have found something special in him which makes him unique and different from your ex. please do not give him up because of my comments. i know you value our friendship and trust me. but love is, after all just pretty the two parties. what others see may not be true. always bear this in mind okay?
huixian darlingg, im thankful for your presence that day when im feeling down. as always, whenever i see you, all my problems just went away. at least for the first hour haahaa. thanks to darren also for not minding me tagging along for dinners, movies and trips into JB with you two. and definitely not forgetting the small fireworks which you had set off in an attempt to bring a smile to darlingg and my face during that night when both of us are feeling emo. also darlingg, after knowing you for 4-5 years, for the every first time, you opened up your heart much deeper to me. i finally understand why you hate being alone and scare of the dark. i can't say i understand what you went through cos i've not been in that situation before. but my heart goes out to you. thats time when i could not be by your side when you need me. but i wanna you know that you ain't alone. i'll try my very best to be there for you. i will not let you turn to drinking days again. i know i hadn't fulfilled my promise last week but i hope you will trust me once more. love you huixian. you're my darlingg always!~
as for working wise, there's still unhappiness between me and that colleague who is hired to share my workload for PBX server. his name is Mani. he has been with us for 4 months already. initially i was pretty harsh towards him as was overstressed out by the 3projects and 4 cust's issues which i'm handling alone. when i'd cleared them all after a month he's here, i'd changed my attitude to him and is more patient. it seemed like the bad impression couldn't be rubbed away no matter how hard i tried. cos til today, anything and everything he still goes directly to kokpin and zhangtao (my manager). in my team, im the only one specialising in PBX. kp knows a lil cos he helped me on the network portion and i taught him as and when i could the simpler things. zt knows also a lil only. but whenever cust has problems, Mani will forever turn to kp first. if kp not around, he will goes to zt straight. ended up its always kp and zt having to be the medium between us. things i have asked him to do (example, documentation), he will never ever do it. his response will be there isn't a need for it. or else said that he will discuss with kp then see how. dots. all that i had requested from him was actually given the green light by either kp or zt one nor. whats the meaning of this man? is he belittling my knowledge and having doubts of my abilities? if so, then how do he wanna explain all the times i had guided him to resolve the issues? and whenever he just started saying the prob, i'll already know where goes wrong. told him and he don't believe. argued and do things his way. end up making mistakes which he should not have causing cust to have a longer downtime. he's lucky there isn't SLG for the service. anyway, we have already split up who will handle which cust. i will definitely keep to it. don't ever cross my path or you'll regret it since til today you still have no idea where's the boundary.
a last thing i wanna mention, is of cos, mr brown. my feelings for him hadn't decreased. but, at the same time, i'm starting to feel numb whenever i saw the things between him and michelle. i had shot him once saying that he is the actual support officer and not michelle. all the time that michelle assisted him to response to cust are viewable by everybody. adding on to the fact that both of them are sitting in front of their respective managers. even the filipinos who do not understand chinese can feel that there's spark flying between the two of you whenever you guys chatted. and the breakfasts and lunch which mich makes for ken is just so freaking obvious. i have seen them left office together after work many times. saw him carrying stuffs for mich. its a gentleman action i know. still... i have also witnessed them having breakfast together at our canteen from 9-930am. you ordered drink for her and was standing just besides me. didn't greet me good morning. its as if we are strangers. anyway, this is office hours lorsh. don't you guys think you all are carrying it too far? true, your relationship ain't affecting both of ya work. but, is it really right? where's the boy i used to know? was it all a fiscase and just a lie? i still smsed you once fortnightly. each time you will reply and also commented you notice this or that about me. diaox. if you are really that concern, you would have come right out and asked on the spot. mich will be clearing her leave from 14-23rd Nov. will you be joining us when she's gone? i have no idea what will happen to us when she is away. after all, you had changed after i went on long leave. but i doubt that history will repeat itself. the thing between you and mich had too huge an impact on me already. the damage has been dealt hard the day you chose to say the white lies. despite it all, you still hold a place deep within my heart. haiz. if only...
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