Sunday, September 7, 2008
woah. its a week since ii last updated this space. the week had past by in a blink of the eye. what have ii been up to? hmmmm lets see.
huixian darlingg is a good pal of mine ever since 2004. she's there for me during my xintat's days. someone whom ii clicked with easily and we can chat about anything under the sun. she knows lots about the dark period of my life. but after ii went into "depression" state, ii had went MIA on her. basically we are hardly there for each other past 2 years and the number of times we had met up could be counted with just a hand. anyway, we finally get to meet up this week. tuesday, saturday & today. she's working at toa payoh now which is pretty near to amk. and the best part is there are buses to tpy from clementi. so as long as she needs me, ii can be there for her. she has gotten a new bf which works is her colleague. but problem is her boss will not let them publicised the r/ship as the guy's ex is working there too. silly right? now cos my darlingg to be so upset over it and she is the type who thinks too much and always put others first before she considers about her own feelings. sounds pretty alike to how ii used to be.
wanna lend her a helping hand but yet ii cant. the r/ship belongs to the two of them. suggestions are all outsiders can give and its still up to the decision of both parties. the foolish girl keeps crying and keeping things to herself. really hurts to see her that way. but thank God i'm by her side this time. cos she finally listens to my advice and confronted her bf about the ex's presence between us. even though the topic is mentioned thru sms but ii believe the guy will talk about it face to face too. ii have talked to him before and the three of us had went out too. huixian darlingg~ you have my support!
grandma was hospitalised on thursday. the sms from yonghua kor came around evening time. ah ma felt numbness on the area surrounding her head and neck area since morning. she had only told ah gong in noon. faint. er shen & er gu they all were then informed and sent her to hospital immediately. doctor'd done a CT scan on her and a full body check up. other than her high blood pressure's level is high and there's slight blockage around her neck area causing the numbness, things look pretty optimistic. she had stayed in hospital for two days and was discharged on saturday. went to visit her yesterday and accompany er gu & johan to brings ah ma down to toa payoh to see chinese sinseh. then brought her back to er gu's house to stay for the week. my cousin jocelyn was from nursing previously so she will be able to take good care of ah ma and watch her condition closely. the doctor said that ah ma will get a stroke anytime within this 7 days >.< hope things will be fine. ah gong has fallen sick too. think its probably cos worrying about ah ma thus the sudden illness. ah gong and ah ma are pretty closely tied together. after all they have been married for 60 years or so. if anything happens to one of them..... ii cant imagine wad will unfold. glad that both of them are the happy-go-lucky type of person. God, please help them to maintain an optimistic outlook always!
as for
ken, ii also dunno wad shd ii blog about him. monday's dinner was canceled as he doesn't have enough sleep over the weekend. he suggested changing the dinner to thurs or fri but ii keep saying never mind, its okay and hinted we can do away with the dinner. but he insisted on it. so we had agreed to have it on coming monday instead which is 8th sept, tomorrow. through out the week (weekdays only), he has been initiating smses or jabber msgs with me. ii no longer immediately reply to him when ii receive the msgs; will wait like 10 minutes or so and finish my current stuff before answering him. but his responses have been arriving pretty fast; within 5 minutes ii may say. now its back to the earlier days whereby he will sms me and ask me not to leave office too late should he left first. sometime this week ii had briefly commented on his dressing of formal clothes throughout the 6 weeks thats he is here. gently reminded him that fridays are dressed down days so can wear casual clothes. his reply is that he preferred the formal wear as his customers may have unannounced visits anytime. but, guess what? friday he wore causal wear.
all the paragraphs above are stuff which happened during 1-5th Sept. ii wanna touch more on 2nd Sept though. ken & ii took bus back together for the first time in close to 4 weeks. we had not boarded the bus at same stop. but he managed to stand diagonally across me on the bus (he's nearer to the exit while im at the railing). didnt initiated chat with him as i was msging huixian. was planning to alight at mrt but he stopped at the first turn into clementi road. he remembered thats where ii can take 165 or else ii gotta walk to interchange. thats not the point though. im heading to tpy that day. so ended up he traveled with me and even sent me to huixian's shop. so coincidentally that hye is staying just opposite huixian's workplace and he needed to redraw cash. so he accompanied me all the way. on the bus trip, ii asked him whether he is drunk that night. he looked into my eyes and told me no. "i even sent michelle home before i go back home". ii turned to look out the window. he then continued on asking some stuff about her; like who she used to lunch with blah. feel like telling him to ask michelle himself but ii just answered all his questions. he also insisted that they are talking about work more often than not.
but my ears aren't deaf. those times during lunch when you were just besides me, ii can hear what type of conversations you two are having. and you yourself had said that when you use blackberry, its usually communicating with michelle & desmond. and thats the handset ii saw you busy with every morning and evening when we aren't on bus together. why bother with the explaniation? the drinking incident is to your benefit already as thats the last straw which caused me not to be able to handle my emo for you and choose to let go. your interest isn't in me obviously so why the start of initiation again? and its obvious that mich has a thing for him. asked him to
lunch alone with her. always calling him to ask about work when she notice the 2 of us are leaving the office together.
even helped him to finish up his drink. wad kind of colleagues will do that for another colleague of the different gender? anyway, i'll be
out of your sight from 11-18 sept. if you aint sure of your feelings, then you can observe whether ii had surfaced on your mind during these days. if yes, what are the thoughts? if no, then the answer is pretty clear cut.
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11:20 PM
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