Saturday, September 20, 2008
ii came back to singapore on 16th sept 11+pm. didnt wanna return to work so fast so purposely on 17th, ii evening then go visit doctor and then have two days' MC. after professing on 14th sept, ii had not smsed him until 19th sept. just asked him hows the SIM open house cos wanna test whether things are back to norm. waited and waited.. no sms came. lunch he invited me to join michelle and him for lunch but ii rejected as ii wanna be with joanna they all. told him to enjoy it and added a =) behind. he told me (again, goodness know how many times alr), "that nah, its just work matters so we lunching together". ii didnt replied him. then cos im meeting staCy at toa payoh, ii asked him if he will be going back home after work. his answer is no and he is going vivo with sarah (a colleague). stunned when ii heard it but just told him to enjoy the date and ii went off without waiting for him to say bye.
previously a month plus back, huiting had said that she overheard ken and sarah talking about personal stuff almost daily. back then, ii had not generated any feelings for ken and had told him wad ii've heard. his response then was its inevitable that one will stray from work topics. then during the month that had passed, ii didnt really see him and sarah chatting much either. so how did he and sarah got together and have a dinner date?
totally no clue. its almost as if he is reporting to me. or rather, letting me know that he is going out alone with a girl. why so? wanna make clear his stand that we aren't a pair? ii don't know and neither do ii need to know his thoughts. to me now is, ii already said wadever ii wanted to you. how and what you are gonna do about it is your choice. if just cos ii professed then our friendship went hay-wired, then it just shows that you are immature when handling feelings matters. and your score will definitely be dropped cos of this. shall observe the next week to see how things goes between us.
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1:49 AM
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