tan julia faith aka xin
working at LGA
1st appearance 1st july 1987
current status
missed feeling doted and loved :(
her desires
want to be successful @ work
wanna have someone to call my own
a trip to taiwan/ hokng kong!
See my dearest jiro & fabien!
Watch sunrise and sunset & fireworks
dkny watch
more adidas items!!
take ccna exam by dec '08
refurnish my room
below are the poems which ii had written during the flight to and fro taipei. its my heartfelt feelings mixed with inspirations from my friends. pretty emo one haha!
the hardest thing the hardest thing ii ever have to do... what is it?, ii often asked myself is it handling my customer's issues? is it quarrelling with my best friends? or it it not having companionship at my darkest hours?
ii think through the questions and found the answer to all is no... so then, in my eyes, what really is the hardest thing to me then? without skipping a thought, your face surfaced in my mind; ever so clearly.
its the hardest thing ii ever have to do... to turn around and walk away pretending that ii do not have feelings for you, pretending that we are just colleagues when my heart tells me you are the one ii want, pretending that i do not care when ii saw how close you are with other girls...
ii look out the window and my tears just flow seaminglessly. the feelings ii have for you; its so much more than anyone realise.
the happiness that ii felt when you smile at me.. the jealousy which comes naturally when spotting you chatting happily with another girl.. the bashfulness shown on my face when friends tease about you and ii.. the sorrowness that's in me when it dawns on how distance we had become.. the joy that wells in my heart whenever you express your care and concern....
tell me then, how do you handle your feelings for me so calmly? why is it you can act so cool when facing me? why do you keep blowing hot and cold towards me when you know the pain it causes me? are all we have really just a superfical relationship all the long?
finally, i've come to realise... the hardest thing ii ever have to do now is facing you; facing the boy ii like slowly turning into a stranger, a stranger who only talks to me when at work.. and its work matters only that we do chat about now...
things in the world not everything in the world can be bought not everything are achievable
not everything request you made are fulfilled, not even if you had plucked up all your courage cos of it. not every dreams will come true, not even if you work more than half your life for it.
many things in this world are unexplainable, but everything happens for a reason. many things aren't within our control, yet many people believe they have full control over their own lives.
nothing in this world can shake one's determination no one can force another to act against their wishes just like there's nothing ii can do to make you fall for me...
all ii ever... all ii ever needed, is a pair of helping hands, to hold onto me whenever i'm about to slip. all ii ever needed, is a welcoming open arms, to catch me when i' about to fall.
all ii ever wished for, is a shoulder to cry on, to provide me with the support ii need badly whenever i'd crumbled. all ii ever wished for, is a listening ear, someone whom ii can share my joys and sorrows with.
all ii ever wanted, is a little more care and concern, to let me know you are aware of my existence. all ii ever wanted, is to feel a little love coming from you, to convince myself that you do mean it when you said ii hold a place in your heart.
all that ii wanted... all these ii shall never have..
