tan julia faith aka xin
working at LGA
1st appearance 1st july 1987
current status
missed feeling doted and loved :(
her desires
want to be successful @ work
wanna have someone to call my own
a trip to taiwan/ hokng kong!
See my dearest jiro & fabien!
Watch sunrise and sunset & fireworks
dkny watch
more adidas items!!
take ccna exam by dec '08
refurnish my room
Mr Kenny Ang C.K., take it as ii beg you. please keep your distance from me. now whenever you'd shown a lil concern for me, whenever you initiate a conversation with me, whenever you look in my direction, whenever you come near me, all my mind tells me to do is move further away from you. simply cos your presence around me is now considered hurt. im reminded of all we had before & e sudden change after e dreadful 28th Aug 2008 outing. the happiness and soothing effect which ii used to feel when you're around are all gone.
but, the feelings, the crush, the admiration and perhaps even a lil bit of love which ii may have for you are still there. as strong as before. looking at the intensive reactions ii'll have whenever you do any of the lil things, ii know things have gone much more deeper than ii realise.
still, ii wanna let you know of my feelings. from our talk yesterday, ii know you don't have plans of leaving LGA so soon. earliest will be end of this year. doubt ii can contain it that long. since i'll be overseas from 11-16th Sept 2008, guess tomorrow will be the best time for me to profess it. then we will have 7 days to cool down and he can think of what's next. how am ii gonna go about it doing it though? no clue at this moment. i'll definitely say something like this, "you're a clever guy who is quick-minded and often able to make accurate judgements. so ii don't think that theres anything which can be hidden from you. but its evident that you are pretending to be ignorant of some stuff....". shall see how. this morning he had emphasized again that career and degrees are his current priorities. he will not talk about other stuff til he has this two basic things. hope that he will reject me straight off. then i'll have a good excuse for the sudden change in attitude towards him when im back. keeping my fingers and toes crossed!!
