Friday, August 29, 2008
28th August 2008Today went to Brewerks @ Clark Quay for Sep babies' dinner celebration. thats 10 of us; Sherry, Huiting, Me, Kenny, Joanna, Michelle, Aaron, Robert, Jay & Net. Ken is seated opposite me while Michelle, as usually is besides him. even before the dinner, ii was already pretty quiet the whole day. adding on with him in front of me, kinda make me even quieter than before. when eating, my eyesight will always be on TV or else chatting with everyone else except him & Michelle. not ii being unfriendly. its just the 2 of them were talking among themselves. so be it.
for those who knows me well, should recall that ii dun touch gassy drinks, more over its beer we are talking about now. ken knows about it too as we talked about this topic a couple of times. but dunno wad got over me. ii'd down beer like water. and ii think he remembered wad ii had said, cos ii felt his eyes on me each time ii picked up my cup & drinked. ii had even challenged the guys to 干杯。 but everybody knows ii aint drank as i'm talking sense.
photo taking & heavy drinking session started after we had finished up our dinner. as the camera flash is too bright and ii had not adjusted to it yet, my eye kept blinking. time goes by and ii got used to it. were teasing J & Aaron to take gay-ier photos then they started asking Ken to have a photo taken with me. there was a space in between us. ii refused to bulge. but he auto moved over beside me. Aaron then asked us to take closer photos. his arm then was placed on my chair. and we were slightly touching shoulder to his chest area. later on when ii viewed the pics, im okay. but he had blinked his eyes. more photos were captured on Michelle's cam. but ii didnt go over take a look. got a feeling she will delete them. she kept commenting then ii had closed my eyes. cant be bothered with her.
the next thing ii know, she asked me to help HER and Ken take photos. crap. she auto slinged her arms over him and he got reacted lorsh. they are like so close can. one of the pics was she almost kissing him.
AND I AM THE ONE WHO TOOK THE PHOTO. DAMNNIT! freaking jealous and mad and upset over it. ii don't dare to be too close too him cos ii dun wan get disturbed by the others. also cos ii scare that he will be uncomfortable with it. ended up? wad happen??
fine. two can play this game. after that ii initiated take pics with J and Aaron separately. in all these pics, ii was very close to them. everybody commented in the pics its as if we are couple. cos we got slang arms around each other, hugged & kissing face too. he witnessed it all. took super close and candid shots with huiting also. his eyes were on me all the while. huiting noticed it and told me. but ii refused to give him a look. so he came standing behind me. then the irritating Michelle followed him. ANGRY!
we all parted ways at 11 plus. Michelle choose to take a cab and Ken following her. he asked me how am ii going back. ii turned to Robert & he said he will send me home. ii agreed readily and walked in the opposite direction. leaving the two of them together is my decision. Ken should already know by now that Michelle likes to act drank and anyhow. well, he wanna be with her right? go ahead! ii will not give a damn about it!
29th August 2008woke up feeling depressed over last night's happening. no sms from him. all the progress we had made the past few days are all forgotten. ii blocked him in jabber & msn. ii didn't join them for lunch. he had not asked me why nor did he ask if need to packet food for me. no sms still when in the office. no form of contact, no nothing.
well, some will say ii started drawing the line first.
who cares? to me, if you are really that concern, you would have approached me to find out wad happened. you hadn't so we shall leave it as it is. even considering calling the dinner date off on Monday. call me childish and over-reacting. but hey, you yourself said you aint interested in r/ship. and maybe you dun wanna reject me cos we are colleagues after all. then its okay. ii shall stop all my moves then.
I'M OFFICIALLY PISSED OFF AT YOU AND YOU WILL BE BLACKLISTED TIL FURTHER NOTICE. MARK MY WORDS EVERYBODY. TAN JULIA FAITH MEANT EVERY SINGLE WORD WRITTEN IN THIS POST. IT WILL NOT BE JUST A DAY THING I'M 200% CONFIRMED GUARRANTED CONFIRMED ON THIS!
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