Sunday, July 27, 2008
my blogging frequency seems to have increase recently. or should i say, ever since Kenny came in to our company lol. well, at least its updating part of my daily life mah. hahaha.
shall continue about him then =x last entry i mentioned that quite regret that i had went out with him cos let him know more about me which may have given him bad impression. but hey, guess what? though he had not messaged me over the weekend, but on Monday when we are back in office, he did auto jabbered me and commented that i look quite shagged. so he does observes me wor. or rather, he do tries to initiate a conversation with me as compared to previous weeks. bought 酸酶 from Auntie and offered it to him. at first he rejected it but after that he auto come and asked from me. and he just took it to his table without asking me xia. haha cos surprised. then there's times whereby i had meetings til after 6pm. when i come out, he is still around xia. and we ended leaving together. or else if he leaves office without me, he will sms me to let me know and asks me not to leave office too late. heex. not bad mah =D
but ah.. after the long talk with him last Friday, it makes me think a lot. kinda going back to those days where i always read too much into people's word. and is becoming pretty emo this week. cried at least one time from monday to thursday each day. faint. first two days is cos pressurized about the ghost image which i deleted without backing up. then another day is angry til cry. someone any old how bypass escalation procedures and complains up to AM. i was then being reprimanded. i already told the AM thats an issue for that cust but had not briefed her about it only. the backstabber even dared to argue back with invalid points. damnit. i was never close to her but after this incident, she only makes me hate her more.
another day cried was due to too many unfinished processes which i wanna change. plans are done and briefed the relevant people liao. just yet to type out a formal email on it. so pearlyn come asked me why Fixics had not done this and that. or if they cropped up also i gotta handle. then she also seems to wanna draw a line between TS/SI. pushing too much stuffs to us. and its very obvious that i am the only one overlooking the emails to si mailing list. we were so majim last time. now things seem to have changed after she goes NOC. of cos i understand thats new rules and everything but.. just cant really accept it.
current me is super sensitive :S how how how? my reliance on kokpin is too high liao. im falling short of my own standard also. and i dun like to bring matters up unless i cant take it anymore. after all, everyone has their own issues to handle. cant keep bombing them. but i know im not alone. this is another thing i gotta change. and of cos, my people relationship needs to improve. too defensive once people shoot at me. need to maintain a good image in front of kenny you know. whahaha!
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7:00 PM
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