Thursday, July 31, 2008
things are getting interesting and more challenging by the day. both of us are different in many ways but one common trademark would be that we do not back off and like to play games. why do i say so huh? well lets see. just on Monday thats the surprise call from him out of the blue asking where i am when its pretty obvious we got off at different stop. the next day after work i went out with sherry and jay so did not leave office today. we smsed though once he knocked off til he reaches home.
then yesterday, i stayed back late specially cos i wanna take bus with him. we had went out with jo & her bf, aaron & her gf, j & 2 others for dinner and drinking session instead. unplanned outing. we were seated together as usual but no words were exchange between us. jo & j tried to get me talking but failed numerous occasions. i ended up drinking more than i chatted. my 酒量 is better this time around though. no vomit or wad. cos i control the amount i drunk at a time. anyway that aint the point. the crowd dispersed about 1030pm and robert drove us back. he is the first to drop while im the last to reach home since i stayed closer to robert. no smses were sent too yesterday night; i had not told him im home. neither did he smsed ask me if i had reached home. so the night just passed this way.
we met on the morning bus, standing back to back. he kinda lean against me gently a few seconds (not cos there's people squeezing as i had taken a peek lol). he exited the bus before me but had not waited for me to walk in together unlike the previous time. not that i really care. so headed back in to office and started busying with work. he suddenly jabbered and asked me wad time had i reached home safely the night before. smiled inside my heart when i saw that. replied him and just find some topic to start on but he mia on me as he is busy. oh well. anyway, i jioed him to acc me buy bday presents for kino & wei de and he agreed readily. ended up both of us work til 730pm so i suggested dinner instead. he is fine with it too lol. so yep. dinner and chatted an hour and went back separately.
wanted to sms him once im on mrt but decided against it. after all i had initiated many smses already. so wanna wait and see whether he would start it anot. hey, he did. abt 10min later asked me if im already on the way back. told me not to hang around and sounded concern. or perhaps its just a way to find topic to start the sms string. neverthlessly, smsed quite a bit. brought up the courage to ask whether he feels im lying that friday about huixian. he told me he believes me totally that i was being put aeroplane. not sure if he means it from the bottom of his heart but that sounds cool. then for the first time, he continues the sms session even though he had reached home! lol. i commented on that too and he just laughed it off. oh and he had tooked 30min to reply one sms. auto explain its cos he is on a phone call with an old fren. sweet ah? whahaha!
likes this game a lot. its seem like playing prey & the predator with both of us switching the roles at diff times. each of us are hooked in a way which the other will never admit. gonna play it bit by bit and slowly. who knows what may happen in the future? =D nights dear kenny! we shall meet in dreamland.
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11:23 PM
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Monday, July 28, 2008
im back to blog again. this will be a fast entry though. just wanna jot down one little thing. it seems like we have made to each other an unspoken agreement that we should always leave work together and take bus. why this comment? cos seriously lei. ever since that day when we first really communicate, almost everyday we also had been taking together. if one has to go first, he will usually sms or msned the other to let her know. or, before knocking off work, will ask her if she is going off yet. and if one is in a meeting (could be until 630pm or 7pm), usually when she comes out, he is still around. and when sees she is packing up, he will do the same. that kind of things. perhaps its cos he knows i always left office alone as not much people takes 183. perhaps cos we both stay north and the places where we board buses are similar. or perhaps its just coincidence. also not sure lei. just an amazing thing i feel.
anyway thats aint wad i wanna blog about. today is a busy day handling one of my PBX cust whose ISDN line died then turned into server. faint. even when i'm out of office, on the way to clementi im also still on the fone with cust. so thats the reason why i had not stand with him inside bus. but jay & zhangtao did and talked to him all the way. as usual, i alighted at the turn into commonwealth. normally if we are together, he will be with me. but he was chatting with the others so he had not. kinda disappointed as didnt get to talk to him much today. almost nil eye contact as too busy.
guess wad? once he dropped at interchange he actually CALLS me! omg! first time xia. and he asked me where i am. so i told him i boarded bus liao. and he actually sounded disappointed. so i just asked he going where all that. so he told me going back home to drop stuff before meeting his friends. in other words, he will be taking 154 which is different from me. so even if i had not boarded 165 back home, also sama mah. dunno why he sounded that way. then he just said "okay, never mind. i'll see you tmr ... (pause a second) right?" then i replied yes of cos. haha then we hung up. its pretty obvious i seem to have a crush on him but hey, i had kept my distance liao since that Friday. the above all he initated one wor. could be im reading too much into it. lol. doesnt matter. its fun. something interesting may roll out as time goes by. who knows? ;D
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Sunday, July 27, 2008
my blogging frequency seems to have increase recently. or should i say, ever since Kenny came in to our company lol. well, at least its updating part of my daily life mah. hahaha.
shall continue about him then =x last entry i mentioned that quite regret that i had went out with him cos let him know more about me which may have given him bad impression. but hey, guess what? though he had not messaged me over the weekend, but on Monday when we are back in office, he did auto jabbered me and commented that i look quite shagged. so he does observes me wor. or rather, he do tries to initiate a conversation with me as compared to previous weeks. bought 酸酶 from Auntie and offered it to him. at first he rejected it but after that he auto come and asked from me. and he just took it to his table without asking me xia. haha cos surprised. then there's times whereby i had meetings til after 6pm. when i come out, he is still around xia. and we ended leaving together. or else if he leaves office without me, he will sms me to let me know and asks me not to leave office too late. heex. not bad mah =D
but ah.. after the long talk with him last Friday, it makes me think a lot. kinda going back to those days where i always read too much into people's word. and is becoming pretty emo this week. cried at least one time from monday to thursday each day. faint. first two days is cos pressurized about the ghost image which i deleted without backing up. then another day is angry til cry. someone any old how bypass escalation procedures and complains up to AM. i was then being reprimanded. i already told the AM thats an issue for that cust but had not briefed her about it only. the backstabber even dared to argue back with invalid points. damnit. i was never close to her but after this incident, she only makes me hate her more.
another day cried was due to too many unfinished processes which i wanna change. plans are done and briefed the relevant people liao. just yet to type out a formal email on it. so pearlyn come asked me why Fixics had not done this and that. or if they cropped up also i gotta handle. then she also seems to wanna draw a line between TS/SI. pushing too much stuffs to us. and its very obvious that i am the only one overlooking the emails to si mailing list. we were so majim last time. now things seem to have changed after she goes NOC. of cos i understand thats new rules and everything but.. just cant really accept it.
current me is super sensitive :S how how how? my reliance on kokpin is too high liao. im falling short of my own standard also. and i dun like to bring matters up unless i cant take it anymore. after all, everyone has their own issues to handle. cant keep bombing them. but i know im not alone. this is another thing i gotta change. and of cos, my people relationship needs to improve. too defensive once people shoot at me. need to maintain a good image in front of kenny you know. whahaha!
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Saturday, July 19, 2008
was supposed to meet huixian darlingg today after work @ toa payoh one. but ah.. dunno what happen her boss got last minute hold a long long meeting which lasts til after midnight goodness knows what time. thought she is working as hairstylist but apparently not so or else this wouldn't have happen.
but anyway, had took bus with kenny to tpy as he stayed there. wanted to walk around alone and just do some thinking actually but he accompanied me all the way til close to 12 midnight. had kinda tried to chase him to go back first but he wouldn't go. faint. well, its an opportunity for us to get to know each other better i guess. he had done most of the talking today.
at his age, he have achieved quite a bit to his name already. back in secondary school, he is NCC's school commander and was in the commission parade one out of four who is holding a sword. these are the ones chosen by the higher up levels and being recognized and appreciated by all. no matter who sees him, with or without uniform, will have to address him as "Sir".cnext up in poly, he is the one guy in 10 years to have turned into the honour treasurer for NYP's embassy (not sure of its the right word). he would had became vice or president should he had entered the CCA in year 1. and for NS wise, after BMT he headed to OCS. platoon wing commander or wing sergeant major or something like that. 2nd highest rank for platoon section. he went into Air Force there after.
all his above achievements is due to being single and available to intake more learning experience from his seniors in camp. thus he is able to rise up so high. his working experience at Dempsey also allows him to know the higher society people and hear about their stories and such. he has got pretty good offers out there if he wanna take it up. and he is willing to learn. a left-handed. he mention his priorities are definitely work and school. asked about when will he consider a relationship. he said probably late-20s.
during the waiting time, he commented that i seem to be wasting time waiting for a fren who will never appear. so i said that sometimes its good to stop and take a look at one's surrounding. you will definitely be able to learn something or recall some stuff. position yourself in his/her shoes and think. had told him about my interest in quotes, debates and such. then asked what type of person i am from what he learnt abt me past week. pretty disappointed to hear that he just due to the last hour what i had said, he had concluded me as someone who is into psychology and philosophy. he (dunno jokingly or what) said that i should exist in the olden days and be a scholar or poet.
besides the above, i had also mentioned that he can take it as cos i wanna him to acc me thus im willing to wait. but of cos, he bypassed that statement. so i asked him back why did he acc me though he feels im wasting my time. his response was just cos he feels i am wasting my time and didnt expect me to wait til so late. but i had already tried to chase him go back home every hourly yet he chosen not to. so anyway he left at close to 12mn which is his last bus. after that he had not smsed me. not even when i told him i reached home. lol.
i do also have a feeling that he could be thinking im using that as an excuse to have some time with him. just he never expose nor say it nia. gotta admit im more or less affected by today's turnout. by hey, lucky i had already planned earlier this week that i'll be the proactive one for a week or two. there after lessen everything else and watch what's the outcome. well, yet to be a week since we only started hanging out together WEF 15th Jul. but hahax. still its alright. interested to know what will happen next. usually if at night he dun reply to me, the next morning he will. so if no movements over the weekend, Monday after work and by end of the week, i should have an answer.
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1:47 AM
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Tuesday, July 15, 2008
this entry gonna be about him again. which him ah? kenny, the newcomer i had mentioned in previous two entries. lol. lets see... thats improvement. true over the weekend he had not approved me in friendster. but yesterday early morning he added me before going to work. and had msned me to kinda like let me know he had. then the guys were wanting to arrange a soccer session today and had gotten me to invite him. so i did. he agreed readily to come as audience as he does not play soccer. was quite surprised as he seems pretty happening person with events after day after work. ended up the soccer was cancelled today as too late notice. so i just mentioned that if he wants, we can have dinner together. after all he surely had told his mum not to cook his share. he said yes straight. /me fly
lol. we left office together. actually was thinking whether i shd exit with him anot but i dun see anyone observing us so i did. but ah... many people witnessed outside nor. Pearlyn was on the Harbourfront. think she saw us as she has a clear view. then we met Sherry & Jay @ the 183 bus stop. faint. all of them knows i usually take 165 home rather than mrt. and kenny took 154 instead of mrt also. so Sherry asked. we both said meeting frenz. lol. the glances exchanged between Sherry & Jay then. jialat liao. on bus so squeezed. then we were standing kinda close. he is just behind me. so scare lose balance and bumped into him xia. hahax.
on the way to amk, we chatted about many stuff. work & our views or past. get to know each other better. we spent about same amount of time talking heex. he mentioned he last attached was back 5+ years ago. which means in secondary. and to him, attached for 2+ years is considered a short time for a r/s. stunned. at my that age, consider okay i thought. the reason he's single is cos he enjoyed the freedom. but i told him i think whats really matters in a r/s is trust, open communication & stuff. he didnt opposed to my opinion so ya hahax. he had asked whats my current stand. without a doubt i said work is important and if i'd a r/s, i wish the other half will understand my commitment for work wise. after all, young is an asset to me. dun wanna be tied down. he was nodding his head. hmmmm...?
anyway dinner is his treat. he 誇張 xia. ordered chicken rice. guess what? he like ordered half a chicken. i stunned there nor. he has a great appetite man. we finished all. 佩服. he sent me to bus stop around 9+. was thinking wanna sms him anot. in the end decided to. was quite worry no response xia. but he did! so crapped a bit. he said see me tmr and nights think got 4 times? whahaha! and he said he shall consider taking mrt with me. hahax. lalala~ i dunno. fun fun. sounds 花痴喔. but hahahha!! perhaps the blog entries will have more in future. shall see how. =x
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9:56 PM
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Saturday, July 12, 2008
lets continue with my previous entry. Kenny had yet to approve me in msn lei. got asked him about it. he said its cos he is out after work every day. hmm looks like he got a quite happening life xia. perhaps go dating after work? lol. haha. the teasing part become more and more already. the guys are organising a soccer session after office hours every tuesday. now lacks one more person to form 2 teams of 4. they wanna me to ask him. says that priority given to him and me. that kind of things. faint. have not ask him about it yet. dun think there's high chances he will come along with his busy schedule. plus he mention he dun play sports one. but ah.. got one weird thing. hye quite tanned xia. could be cos he just finished NS 3 months ago. he got the sunshine look really. hmmm no way to get his picture post up here as he does not have facebook nor friendster. =( oh yah, the other guy whom i mention coming in not reporting for work next week liao. cos he got a job with higher pay. lol.
anyway i wanna mention we got added a new blood to the voice team. its an Indian with Linux background. he is quite eager to learn and stuff. but problem is i dun have the time to teach til thursday. let him do restoring from image. theres some problem when he tried then straight away said its due to my document incomplete. thanks lei. super angry at him and attituded him. plus he kept asking Kokpin for him. as if he will know. after work, Sherry and Joanna got tried talked some sense to me and explained the situation. so next day things are better. i focused more on him. the guides were sufficient. and i got talked to him nicely and explained that each of us in SI has different job scope so he should come to me if there is any issue. things are better now. he is quite a fast learner. or rather, he followed closely and asked for assistance when he needed. hopefully can hang over to him faster then i can go back to learning networking!! =D
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Wednesday, July 9, 2008
lalala!~ finally got fresh boy come into LGA. and guess what? he is just a year older than me. and he stays in toa payoh! single and available. okay this one not i ask one. its my colleagues who told me. Monday is his first day of work. im the first to speak to him as i reached office early. so show him his seat which is just behind me and helped him configure his desktop stuff & ip phone. heex. so he introduce himself to me first. kekex!
had lunch with him and the rest yesterday. faint. all pushing me to him nor. keep teasing that we are a pair for no reason. his name is Kenny. so they are saying next time i will call him 'Honey' instead of 'Kenny'. LOL! then also try to match us up ah. then i asked him a simple question which i repeated many times due to the loud voices surrounding us. then stupid Jay requested everybody around the table to keep silence as im speaking to him. lol. so paiseh can. face super red nor and dun dare see him in the eye. after lunch while walking back to office, he walked with me and initiated conversation. asked me where i stayed, schooled at and here how long. that kind of things.
hahax. okay larsh. quite a good start. he is cute too. got a dimple i think. =x had added him in msn but yet to see him online. no friendster/facebook account though so cant know about his past nor see more photos of him. nvm. i believe in future. whahaha! his msn address seems like he hasnt get over his ex or someone he likes. well.. could be an old email address. whatever. now is what happens! hahax. i sound guy-crazed right? just kidding nia. unattached for 2+ years liao. cant be blamed =x there will be another guy coming in next week too. heard he is 27 this year with car and staying in bishan. super close. but ah, dunno how he looks like. more interested in Kenny now though. doubt there will be any age guy. shall see how it goes. heex.
another thing i wanna mention is that, there's a murder crime over at one of the block in front of my house. that girl is 19 only and stayed 2 blocks away from me. she is killed one or two days ago. unsure by her bf or stranger. came to know about it from 3 friends. once they see in newspaper they smsed me and warned me. thanks June, Kino & Pearlyn. you all really do care for me and i know i've got a place in your heart. really appreciate it. you ni mei zhen hao!
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Wednesday, July 2, 2008
29th June 2008So tired but very happy. The LGA chalet which Sherry, Joanna & Alvin had organised is a success. The four of us had booked in earlier and started arranging the stuff. Pearlyn, Kokpin & David came in not long later and helped to move some furniture then went cycling and rollerblading. About 3pm the Filipino girls (Franciete, May & Det) came in. They assisted us to start the fire and cooked the food first. Other colleagues started to stroll in after 5.30pm. Everyone begins mixing around and helping themselves to the food.
Photo taking started then.
As the night falls, David & co took out the wines and liquors. faint. The chalet is partly organised to celebrate my 21st birthday so this group started urging me to drink. First its white wine brought by Antonio. 5 minutes later I was served Vodka and there after its Barcardi. Haix. Drunk too fast. After stopping at the 3rd cup, I sat down and rest. Cake cutting for the June babies started at 8+pm. Then water bombs are aimmed at the babies. I ran away fast so escaped from it heex. Then we went into the room & sabotaged Pearlyn. I vomitted suddenly during this time. Opps. Obviously I'm slightly drunk & stomach is bloated from the gas. Couldnt help it. I then settled down at the childresn's room cos scare that someone will hong me to drink again. But lying down just make things worse. More vomitting.
Finally I agreed to go for a walk to take some fresh air. Thanks Alvin for accompanying me. Felt much better after the 40 minutes' walk. It is already 11.30pm then. Most people left. Now balance Joanna, Pearlyn, Sherry, Alvin, WP, Elaine, Anton, KP, David & Kelvin. They took out the ice cream cake for me. Sprayed a bottle of cream on a plate and hid the candle stick inside. Then gotta locate it. Tooked about 5min and face is white. David got picture of it. Shall upload when he passed to me. Some left after the cake blowing. Pearlyn, Joanna, Kelvin & me then sat down to play Big 2. The loser needs to drink. Pearlyn is sensitive to liquors so David drank on her behalf. I cant drink anymore so got the option of either eating or have Alvin drink on my behalf. Thanks Alvin again. Played mahjong with David, Kelvin & KP from 3 to 5+am. When I went toilet I suddenly realised I having rashes on my face =( Anyway, Mc's breakfast next. We left the chalet about 10+am. Alvin drove me home. I slept all the way til 7pm. lol.
30th June 2008I am on MC today. Cos firstly due to the rashes on my face. Quite frightening to myself I feel. Then its also cos of my flu and cough which is there for 1+ week liao. Nothing much during day time. Evening @ 7pm meet up with June, Jane & Kino for K session. Sang for 5 hours. First time xia. Took many
photos and talked about many stuff. Really miss those days with them. All of us are busy with work, school & boyfriends ever since we graduated from secondary school. Anyway, when the clock strikes 12am which signifies it is 1st July 2008. The waitress bought in a cake and we sang birthday song. Heex. Its the first time in the 6 years I know June & Jane, my two best friends are with me for my birthday. Thanks girls and Kino.
1st July 2008Actual day of my birthday. On leave obviously hahax. Also another slack day of watching my taiwan variety shows. Had dinner with my beloved cousin Yingxi at Shokudo Japanese Food Bazaar located @ Raffles City Shopping Centre. Had many great japanese food. This meal treated by her brother, Alvin. (This is my cousin different from the above Alvin who is my colleague) Shopped at Marina Square there after. Bought a cardigian for myself. Simple 21st birthday.
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