Sunday, December 23, 2007
i dunno how to describe life now. should i say its great? i have been talking for weeks that im glad to be able to switch over to apps support. this has been announced already to all staff a couple of weeks back. by right, i should feel joyous but i don't. instead, im feeling lost. starting to doubt in my own capability. felt as if im not needed inside the custcare team anymore. there are people taking over my workload. i can only guide to ensure all is done correctly. then im given the task of generating the weekly SI meeting report which i aint doing a good job. on the otherhand, i heard that ZT planned to send me for blackberry training which im quite happy about. afterall, it means i won't totally be stuck with administrative work.
i seem to be starting to lose interest in work lerr. got share that with a colleague. they say it may be cos of the change bah. i guess so. shall wait and see. in the midst of clearing leave; off on 18th to 25th december. have not been doing much except watching the dramas and variety shows. of course, got meet up with some frenz too. but deep down, still feel something is amiss. i cant find anything to motivate me. wheres the girl who never says die? all i see in the mirror is a girl who is lonely and not needed by anyone.. the xin at the beginning and end of 2007 is totally two different girls. haix.
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7:26 PM
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