Tuesday, October 16, 2007
i have been self-evaluating almost weekly nowadays. not sure why either but hahax, anything larsh. shall just write my thoughts down as usual.
there seems to be a change in my thinking for relationships. i was well known for sticking close to bf & not giving them their freedom. then always anyhow imagine things when bf doesn't have time for me. but now, i'm attached once again. 锐添 is schooling and working at the same time. after sch, then off to work til 10pm. doesn't return home til 11+pm. he w0rks 2 jobs somem0re so usually weekends also n0 time for me unless he 0ff. thus, we don't meet up 0ften. overall, he is a workaholic and super busy dude. surprisingly i didn't bombed him with smses and make him meet me.
my friend feedbacks that i now had become more understanding therefore i didn't make a fuss. another said its cos this is due to love. hmmm, i am quite surprised by my own attitude too. afterall, nobody knows better other than myself how i used to be when inside a r/s. i always hear people say when you met the 0ne in y0ur life, y0u will change willingly & naturally. is this how it is for me? hahax bu zhi dao. but there's 0ne thing i kn0w for sure.
锐添 dear, its not cos y0u are there for at my weakness moment the other day. y0u had make it clear to me beforehand how you are in a r/s. you had told me of the fact that y0u can't accompany me frequently & don't like to sms. y0u had told me to my face that y0u can do without a r/s at this point of time. all the "rules" you had laid it on the table before professing to me. i still chosen to be with y0u. the reason is simple. the past year i have been searching for you and h0ping to bump int0 you again. finding y0u back c0s i really want and wish to have a chance with you. nobody knows what will happen in the future. but now what i do know is, i will put my best effort into this r/s. 希望你和我能长长久久。 瑞欣<3锐添
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10:22 PM
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